Whoever becomes as a child enters into the Kingdom.
I said to my 4-year-old daughter, "Bridget, there
is this man named John-Roger who is always with us. He's a Mystical
Traveler, and he comes at night when we're sleeping and takes
us out of our bodies to the soul realm. He helps us work off our
karma, so we can be free." She understood. Shortly thereafter
she came to me one morning and said, "You know, Mom, John-Roger
came last night and took me right up to God. And Mom, did you
know that God has no face or arms or legs?"
We all had worked hard to prepare the soil for our garden. On
the day of planting, I worked several hours to make nice, neat,
straight rows that were properly staked with the seed packets
at the end of each row. The following weekend we had company,
and the children went out back to play store. They used my seed
packets in their little game. On Monday morning I discovered all
my rows were without labels. Very indignantly, I reprimanded the
children. "You took my seed packets off, and I worked very
hard to get those right. Now how am I going to know what is in
what row?"
Bridget said without one second hesitation, "Mom, when the
carrots come up, they'll be in the carrot row, and when the corn
comes up, they'll be in the corn row...." I thought if I
needed labels in my life, I was blocking myself, and depending
on labels when things were going to be flowing into my life anyway.
When I shared that experience in contributions at a seminar, J-R
said, ''You know, you should really listen to her. She's a good
teacher."
I went home in a consciousness of, "Will the real mother
please stand up!"
Bridget has had nasal congestion. Often she refuses to blow her
nose, but instead sniffs up the mucous and eventually throws it
up. One day when I came home from work, she was not feeling well
and was running a pretty high fever. I immediately popped an antibiotic
and some aspirin in her mouth much to her disgust. She was sitting
on the dishwasher top, and before I could even lift her down,
she threw up - all over the dishwasher, all over the floor, and
all over herself. Then she said, "I don't like this pill
stuff, Mom. I think I'll work with the green Light."
Carolyn McIlrath
Now I am becoming as close to Spirit as when I was less than 5
years old. At that time I had experiences out of the body where
I would usually go down to my aunt's house, while I was asleep.
I would float around the room, bounce off the ceiling, saying,
"Look, it's fun; you can do it, come on; come on." Occasionally
I would go outside and float way up over the neighborhood. It
was so neat; I just loved it.
Sherwood Platte
When I was small, before the veil of forgetfulness dropped, I
had a recurring dream in which I would fly off into the night
on an elliptical course and then return back to my starting place.
This flight pattern was disturbing in one aspect, because I never
knew exactly where I was going and frequently would crash into
the stand of eucalyptus trees in back of my parents' house. It
seems that at that tender age I needed some guidance.
Mark T. Holmes
I don't think there ever was a time when I wasn't aware of Spirit.
When I was a child, the little boy next door to whom I was very
closely attached, passed away at 3 o'clock in the morning. He
came to me in oval white Light, seemingly coming from our living
room into my bedroom, and stopped at the foot of my bed. In a
miniature form right in the center of this white, egg-shaped object,
he was standing and waving goodby to me. He was two years older
than I, being 9 when he died. He had talked to me about a world
that he was very familiar with, but I didn't understand at the
time. He had been taught early in life to read, because he was
an invalid. I loved to listen to him read the fairy tale books.
It was fantasy friendship. I didn't realize then that he was actually
living more in the Spirit world of children than he was living
on the physical, and he was constantly being prepared to go to
the home he always talked about. We both experienced the wee folks
many times, and of course when we talked about it, they said our
heads were filled with fairy tales. What else could they expect
of us?
He had gone through surgery and didn't survive. When I saw him
at the foot of the bed, I became hysterical. My mother came running
to me, and I said, "Bobby is dead! Bobby is dead!"
She said, "You had a bad dream."
I said, "No, my eyes were wide open, and he came by the bed
and said goodby to me, and he's dead." The next day my mother
found out that he died at 3 o'clock in the morning. I just accepted
it, because I didn't have any fear of death.
When I was in school, one of the teachers told us to write a composition
on the most wonderful experience we had. So I wrote about my friend
Bobby and how he came to say goodby to me. I got a double A on
it, but she said, "I would like to see your mother."
She told my mother I was very bright, but I had a vivid imagination,
and that could be dangerous, because I could get so that I wouldn't
tell reality from unreality. I felt betrayed, because she had
questioned me about this and had me go into more detail; I really
thought she was interested. From that experience I learned to
keep my mouth shut.
Then my mother took me to see one of the head rabbis at the mystical
school close to our house. These rabbis are well-versed in the
mysticism and the know-how to exorcise and to communicate with
the dead, and they have the secret key to the unwritten part of
the ancient Hebrew wisdom. He re-assured me that I was very gifted
and that God smiled at me and that when I would get older, many
people would come to me for my wisdom and ability to help. He
said, "Whatever you feel in your heart is right for you.
The answers to many of the questions you have asked me will come
as you grow older, and they will come from within you. Don't be
afraid to question and to look and to ask, but be careful who
you talk to on these same things."
I had never met my father-in-law, because he was dead when I married
my husband. When I was pregnant with my son, I had the crib up
in our room. One night I was drifting towards sleep while my husband
was fast asleep. I had been looking out the window, when all of
a sudden I turned my head, and there was this man wearing a dark
suit with a chain across his vest. I knew he was my father-in-law,
because my brother-in-law Phillip looked just like him. He was
looking at my husband with so much love, and then he looked over
at me and gave me the sweetest smile. Then he looked back at my
husband and floated out of the room, and I knew that I was going
to have a son. I had a son, and he was named after this man. About
three years later my mother-in-law and I were looking through
a box of pictures, and we found a picture of my father-in-law,
the man who had come into the room.
Rev. Luba Green
I asked J-R if he could give our sons guardian angels, because
they are so adventurous. J-R replied, "They don't need guardian
angels; they have the Mystical Traveler."
I thought, "Whew, who needs more?"
Muriel Moore
When I was a kid, I was a migrant laborer, working on farms, staying
in little shanties, and moving around. I would be in the rows
of beans picking, and I'd see my step-dad and my mother and my
sister in front of me in separate rows working under the hot sun,
singing spiritual songs. I'd always lift and realize that someday
I would be doing something better. I've always known that the
teachings of the Mystical Traveler were coming. I didn't know
what they were, but I used to day dream. Now it's becoming a reality.
Tom Moses
One time in Mexico I was wearing my HU shirt, and my best friend
who I had known since we were little babies, asked me in Spanish,
"What does that mean?" I told him back in Spanish that
it's the phone number of God.
Gary Alan Ginthner
I liked children in theory rather than in practice. I wasn't too
sure how to act around them, and consequently they didn't know
how to act around me. When walking on the beach attempting to
tune inwardly to know the answer to a question, I was running
different things through my consciousness to see which was the
right one. A 4- or 5-year-old wearing an army outfit was pretending
I was the enemy. He was hiding behind some sand dunes, and he
thought I couldn't see him, but I could. I turned around and smiled
at him, and he got a sheepish grin on his face. He was playing
a game, and he knew it. I had been playing a game, but I had forgotten.
Jim Peterson
As a parent I have learned to know and understand that to guide
and direct a child is a special privilege, as they are God's children.
My 10-year-old daughter has brought some important lessons home
to me, and through this opportunity I am able to see God a little
more clearly. I recognize that my daughter is the total of all
her existences, and she has brought forward certain characteristics
with which she can best gain the experience for her soul's evolvement.
At times I have felt guilty that she doesn't do and express as
I would like. My lesson is to direct her into the positive sides
of her nature, to understand and listen to her.
My son Bob, who is now 24, was already grown before I came into
the Movement, but with the help of understanding myself, I have
learned to be his friend. Through the Light I have been able to
see the beauty of his soul and to understand and allow him to
learn from his own experiences of life. A short time ago in the
middle of the day, he took time out from work to call and tell
me, "I wanted to say thank you for being my mother and to
tell you that I really love you." This was the most precious
gift I, as a parent, could receive.
Genie Lucille Ford
I began knowing El when I was seventeen. Her spirit, her being,
the feeling of who she is came through to me. I was really in
love with her father Kerry, and we knew that someday we would
have a child. Our relationship was stormy. When we were together,
we were totally together; yet three months later we would be hundreds
of miles from each other. I got pregnant with her on a mescaline
trip in the middle of a meadow in spring when all the fruit trees
were coming into bloom. I wanted it to be right. I wouldn't make
love with her father for two years, because it was never right.
I made love with his best friend, but not with him - it had to
be perfect. It drove him mad, because we really loved each other.
When we did love, it was as perfect as it could be. We came toward
each other naked, and as we did I knew we were going to make love
and have a child. The earth moved around us and through us. It
was an act of total creation, and we had the awareness of that
creation. When we were finished, I looked up at him and said,
"We just made a baby." He shushed me; it was too special
to talk about, so sacred.
Four months after I got pregnant Kerry left, and I was alone.
All my dreams had been fulfilled, and then everything crashed.
However, I had this baby growing within me. One beautiful guy
came forward and said he would take care of me and my child. I
knew that wasn't right and waited for Kerry to come back. He wrote
me a letter saying he never loved me, and we had nothing in common.
It knocked me flat, but through it I had to stand on my feet and
become a person. For a long time I was in his shadow and didn't
pay much attention to what I was to do. Then when the baby came,
I had to be a complete person to be a mother. I wrote to him that
if he wasn't there for her birth that he better forget about being
a father to her. He knew one night in New Mexico that he had to
get back to Berkeley. He hitch-hiked through a snow storm and
arrived twelve hours before I went into labor. He supported me,
and after that I was able to release this. He has come forward
recently wanting to be a father, and now I am able to give him
that opportunity.
I had El in a room in which I was surrounded by the most beautiful,
high people I could find. During each contraction for about an
hour everyone was chanting OM. During the entire labor, people
were supporting me by meditating and playing Indian music. El
was welcomed into the world with wild cheer. People went through
changes at her birth. One guy who thought kids held one down,
and that they were not hip, gained a new outlook and respect.
I was lying naked in labor in great pain and discomfort. When
I went into hard labor it was not just being physically naked
in front of everyone, but it was like being spiritually naked
too. I was stripped of every cover I had ever wrapped around me.
There was no way I could be phony. I was purely me, whatever that
was worth. That was a frightening experience, an incredible cleansing
bath. Afterward they still liked me; not only did they like me,
but they loved me, and they knew me, the inner person.
I found out that J-R blesses children, and I asked that El be
blessed. In the blessing he said that she was a child of Light.
She outsmarts me about twenty times a day, and I am not dumb.
She is so aware that I have to be careful what I relate to her.
It is one thing to watch one's words, but to have to watch what
one feels around a child keeps one moving to the Light.
The Light Study changed my life. I had been yearning for someone
who would understand the deepest part of me. John-Roger, my spiritual
director and teacher, opened the Light Study by going directly
to that place and letting me know he was right there with me.
I am not alone in that place anymore. He showed me ways of clearing
repression. My ex-husband Kerry had been gone for two years at
that time, and I thought our relationship was finished. J-R read
a past life in great detail. I saw El's father this past Christmas,
and I was so clear that I looked at him and said, "I love
you, and you are my daughter's father." The heavy, grasping,
clutching emotional karmic tie - I don't feel it, but he does.
I can share what we have now, but the past is gone.
My relationship with El has changed dramatically since being in
the Movement. I am here to cooperate with myself, express the
cooperation, and be free. El is here to express herself, cooperate
with the expression, and then she is free. Our karma together
is to be creative, but the negative is destructiveness. We flip
back and forth with that, either loving and feeling close, or
we are at each others' throats. She just turned 3 years old, but
she doesn't believe that she is only 3.
Once I picked up a friend at the airport and drove him over to
J-R's for a Light Study. El wanted to go swimming; so I had an
hour or two in the pool with her, having to be quiet because the
Light Study room is right off the pool area. We hadn't been getting
along very well, and keeping her quiet in the pool where kids
normally jump and yell was difficult. We floated around and related
to each other for the longest time, and slowly the realization
began filtering in that this was a teaching session. J-R was teaching
us how to cooperate with each other. We flowed back and forth.
I would get uptight, but something would catch me, and the flow
would enter in again. If I start to get uptight with El I will
see two distinct paths. One is to start yelling and spanking and
being negative, which brings in her negativity and then destructiveness.
Or I can keep coming forward with love and assurance, a positive
action, and some discipline if necessary, but done with love.
If I can hang on long enough she will come around with love and
reassurance, bringing me around. It is something when a 3-year-old
says, " Hey, come on! Get off that negative thing."
From my position of authority and motherhood, it is hard to say
to my child, "Okay, I accept that; teach me."
Jackie Travis
God heals.
My great grandfather was sick, and he was almost about to die.
I started telling him about the Light. He said, "Oh wow!
Look at that."
I told him about each color of the Light, what it means, "Like
the yellow Light will give you concentration in school or whatever
you're working on, and the green Light is what you need right
now." He was in bed there, and I told him, "Uncross
your legs and uncross your hands and close your eyes." He
did that, and I brought in the Light. First of all I surrounded
myself with the Light for the action. I said it out loud, and
all this green Light came to him. I had my eyes closed, but I
pictured the room. From a little corner in the roof, this green
ray came out all over his body. When it was over, he said, "You
know, I'm feeling a little bit better. How did you do that?"
One time I forgot my medicine, bronchade mist; I had asthma then.
I was sleeping, and all of a sudden I start gasping, and I couldn't
breathe at all. So I started bringing in the green Light and J-R.
From the roof again all this green Light started coming down,
and then I saw a little purple ball there at the door. It came
and bounced over here. Then it bounced onto the bed; it came a
little closer. Then it sat on my lap, and I just wanted to touch
it, but it went back. Then it came back again. I was feeling a
little bit better. Then Elena, my mother, went to the manager's
apartment. We didn't have a telephone. He was asleep, and she
was knocking on the door and knocking on the door, and nobody
would answer. When she walked away, the manager opened the door.
She says, ''Can I use your telephone, because Gary is really having
trouble breathing?" He says sure.
So she calls J-R, and she thinks that everybody is asleep. She
lets it ring until Michael answers; he was the only one awake.
She came back, and Michael came over. He just came flying up.
I could hardly walk, because I couldn't breathe at all. So we
just zoomed down to the car, and I was feeling a little bit better
with all that Light in that car. Michael had the same condition;
he took the same thing that I did. He gave me some of that, and
he asked us if we would like to spend the night over. Elena said
she didn't know, but I said, "Yeah, yeah!" I slept on
his Aura Balance couch, and that was really neat, because it really
felt good. Then that morning I went to school, and I was feeling
better.
Gary Alan Ginthner
Healing is important to me. I was restored in faith because of
an experience I had of being healed by Joy Irene (a friend in
MSIA). A burning hot fever was gone in 5 or 10 minutes through
color technique and through her hands. She also told me about
the devic kingdom, which opened my eyes and gave me a new direction.
Rev. Barbara Shere
When I met John-Roger, I didn't have long to live. My bones had
osteoporosis, and walking on hard surfaces was painful. Even knocking
on a door, if not done carefully, could leave my hands in pain.
The spinal cord had bent into an "S," a disc had slipped,
and the nerves were pinched. A form of attack occurred in which
I lost all feeling in the lower half of my body. Some days I couldn't
even get out of bed. At other times I could sit and stand and
walk around, but the pain was so great that I was close to blacking
out. Doctors suggested a treatment which would require being laid
up in a hospital for at least six months and which, they said,
would probably not succeed. The most that they hoped for was to
keep the situation from worsening.
In addition, a peptic ulcer had developed, and I was spitting
blood. Although I was only 25 years old at the time, my skin had
the appearance of someone 50 or 60 years old. The toxicity of
the body was very high, which resulted in tension, low energy,
and loss of weight. It seemed as though I was a negativity magnet,
attracting these things to me and holding them. The normal purifying
action of the body just wasn't working for me.
I sold or gave away everything I owned except what would fit into
a small duffel bag and boarded a plane in New York City headed
for Auckland, New Zealand. The most positive plan I could perceive
at the time was to "get away from it all." The plane
stopped in Los Angeles, and between flights I decided to visit
a friend through whom I met John-Roger. In him I saw something
completely new, something positive and uplifting. At the time
I had no idea that it was taking place, and to this day I don't
know for sure what happened, but since then the spine has straightened,
the nerves are functioning perfectly, the bones have regained
their strength, the ulcer has healed, the skin has regained its
health, the weight was regained, the energy level has increased,
and I look at least ten years younger. I can't help feeling that
meeting John-Roger was the turning point for every one of the
negative patterns I was experiencing.
Ted Drake
The first and most prominent change I was aware of after entering
MSIA was that of my personality. Something inside me was very
happy about this change. I used to be sarcastic and had a sharp
tongue towards people. I always had a clever comeback, even if
it was cutting. Shortly after joining MSIA, I would wake up mornings,
and in my head I would hear the words, "Keep your mouth shut."
This went on three to four months.
Finally, the importance of these words started sinking in as I
realized, "Hey, maybe if I keep my mouth shut, things won't
keep bouncing at me so much." It finally got through to me,
and as I changed my attitude, my life also started to change.
I had a little callus that was growing above my upper lip. When
I had my first Aura Balance, I said to John-Roger, "I have
a feeling this started because of things I say that I shouldn't
be saying. I realize how you've been telling me through night
travel to keep my mouth shut, and I'm really working at it. Do
you think this can be cleared through this Aura Balance?"
He said, "We'll see what we can do." After the Aura
Balance, I kept applying Light to this area as well as monitoring
my words. I was confident in knowing that John-Roger was bringing
healing to the area, because I was cooperating. The callus started
diminishing, and in three months it was gone, without even a scar
as a reminder. I realized that something is working here that
is beyond what we can see or comprehend.
I had a small tumor that was growing under my right eye, and the
doctor said it must be removed. I have always been fearful of
doctors; so I decided that the Saturday morning before going to
his office I would drink wine for breakfast to be half numb when
I got there. As I started to open the refrigerator door and reach
for the bottle, something inside of me said, "Don't you believe
in the Light and all the things you profess and have written about?
Or, are you a big fake?"
I said to myself, "That's right. I can't drink this wine,
because if I did, I would not be true to myself. I have J-R and
the Light, and that's all I need!" My husband, Sam, drove
me to the doctor's office. I called in the Light while sitting
in the car and asked it to act as a tranquilizer for me. By the
time I got there I felt sedated and had no fear. I could feel
J-R with me, and the Light flooding my body protecting me. I felt
nothing as the doctor worked. When we left, I started to feel
the Light lift, like sedation wearing off. We drove on to Big
Bear for the day, and I needed no aspirin or pain pills. I applied
Light to the area with my hand for 10 or 15 minutes every two
hours, which took the stinging away. A week later when the doctor
checked it, he said he couldn't believe how rapidly it was healing.
I smiled and silently gave my thanks to J-R, the Light, and my
True Self.
Louise Wyatt
I was on heavy medication given to me by doctors, including
sleeping capsules, anti-depressants, tranquilizers, thyroid pills,
etc. During my second Aura Balancing, it was brought to my attention
that these drugs were placing a terrific strain on my body and
emotions. I was a little surprised, but nonetheless felt that
the suggestion that I could quit taking them was entirely possible.
John-Roger indicated that I would not go through the withdrawal
alone, which certainly was good enough for me. I quit taking the
medication immediately. It has been about a year now, and even
though I have been through some strenuous times, the Light and
my faith in God and John-Roger have given me the strength and
determination to pass through all experiences.
The Light and the Mystical Traveler helped me during surgery last
fall and through the post-surgery time. Immediately after gall
bladder surgery, I had no pain, just a little uncomfortable feeling.
One of the nurses said, "Mrs. Leight, one just does not go
through major surgery without pain. Don't wait until the pain
gets so bad to ask for relief." I had no need for what they
were offering. My Inner Master was taking excellent care of me.
Rev. Rhoda Leight
During my reading John-Roger said he could see my mother and how
beautiful she is, but she had taken on weight. It caused her to
suffer from low blood-sugar level, and the fat was pressing against
her heart, giving her heart palpitations. I thought, "My
mother is not fat," but I hadn't been home in about four
years. He told me to call or write to her to tell her to follow
particular instructions.
So I called her, and sure enough my mother had gotten fat, had
been in the hospital a couple times, and wasn't working; she was
sick. I told her what he said. My mother is very spiritually minded
and moved on it. A month later she called me and said, "I'm
just fine; I've lost a lot of weight, and I'm working now and
feeling much better."
After I gave my mother the instructions, it was 6 in the morning,
and I called John-Roger's home. I thought I would put the information
on the tape with my mother's phone number, because I didn't figure
anyone would be up at that hour. When I called, the phone never
rang. John-Roger picked it up and said he'd been waiting for my
call. I told him about my mother, and he said, "Yes, I don't
want to communicate with your mother, because I'd rather work
with her silently now; it will be better." I said okay. He
said some beautiful things to me, sounding the way I would perceive
Christ - a very soft, beautiful tone that reached inside. Each
time he has talked to me on the phone his voice has brought peace
and everything was serene, like he was right inside of my soul,
keeping everything in balance. He said, "Now you go lie down
and get some rest."
I hung up the phone and immediately burst into emotion, flooding
with tears. Then it totally stopped, and I didn't feel anything.
But then the emotion returned, and I cried again. Consciously
I was wondering what this was. I found out later that it was a
cleansing.
Tom Moses
By the time I was 18, I was smoking marijuana, taking Dexedrine,
Benzedrine, methadrine, LSD, and heroin, and had contracted a
disease called serum hepatitis, which is supposed to be terminal.
I was told by a psychic to quit drugs, but I didn't do it, although
I tried. I depended upon my friends for my happiness and inner
peace, and they were taking drugs, which made it difficult not
to take them myself. The hepatitis was really bouncing me around.
I was getting attacks of jaundice and reached one point where
I hadn't gone to the bathroom for 25 days and was continually
heaving. I was dying inside. Inside I called out for help.
A few months later my step-father introduced me to MSIA seminars.
At my second seminar I went up to John-Roger and told him about
the disease that was troubling my liver and spleen. He said, "We'll
see what we can do." At the seminar, John-Roger took us into
meditation and called in the Light. When the Light came in, I
had an instant healing from this disease; I went from pain to
no pain. I've gone to doctors, and although this disease was supposed
to be in the system, it is not. I thank God I was healed.
New Year's Eve of 1969 I put down drugs. I realized to quit taking
drugs, I had to totally remove myself from people who were taking
drugs. Continually I was tested with friends and situations that
said, "If you're my friend, you're going to do this."
I said, "I'm your friend, but I love myself too much to allow
myself to get back into that pattern." The strength that
came from the seminars and John-Roger was enough to hold me through
those times. I had created the drug action in a former life, and
I had to be responsible for the action. I think I broke through
the drug consciousness in the dream state. In the first dream
I knew a girl who had been taking drugs but wanted to quit. She
came to stay at my two-story house, and I was helping her out.
Then one day I came home, and she wasn't here. I knew she had
gone back into the pattern. Immediately she came riding up with
a motorcycle gang. They started walking up the outside stairs
to my apartment. One guy lit up a joint, a marijuana cigarette.
I said, "You aren't coming into this house with that."
"Who's going to stop me?" he challenged.
I said, "You see that ground down there? I'll grab hold of
you and take you over the side with me. You aren't entering my
house no matter what." He came at me again but then saw that
I was serious and backed off. I woke up from the dream.
The next night I dreamed I'd met a friend whom I hadn't seen for
a long time. I'd been involved with him in a drug action. He lit
up in front of me and said, "Here, you want to smoke with
me?"
I said, "I'm sorry. I'm not into that anymore."
He asked, "What do you mean? Are you a narcotics agent now?"
"No."
"I think you are. Why did you quit?"
"I'm just not into it anymore; I found better ways."
"Listen, if you want to be my friend, you're going to smoke
this with me.''
I said, "Listen, I love you like my brother, but I'm not
going into that." The guy got really up-tight and threatened
me again. I just walked away, but I sent my love to the person.
I have a friend who was having severe back trouble and had been
in excruciating pain for six months. She saw a big change in me
since I was in the Movement and was wondering what was going on;
so I took her to a seminar. We almost got in an accident and were
late; her nerves were so tight that her back was in terrible pain.
I enjoyed the seminar, but afterward she said, "I don't believe
a word of it. Everybody in here is deluded. They want to believe
these things; so they're believing them. That guy is a big phony."
I said, "Okay, if that's the way you feel, I'll respect your
opinion, but it's not mine by any means." Two or three days
later I knocked on her door. The door flew open, and she was smiling
like I hadn't seen for so long. She grabbed me and took me in
the house saying, "Randy, the weirdest thing happened after
the seminar. I came home and laid down on the bed, and this green
Light came into the room and filled my body. I felt my back snapping,
and ... and when is the next seminar?"
I got a letter from a friend in Rumania, whom I had given the
seminar tape on the Inner Calm. A friend of hers had lumbago in
her back and bones, which in the wintertime was unbearably painful.
She told this woman how to do this exercise she learned on the
Inner Calm. The woman used the exercise, and has no more pain.
Randy Garver
I was walking along an alley near where I was staying in Florence,
and I felt a spooky feeling. Later that night when I was going
to sleep, I switched off all the lights, but something told me,
"Don't switch off the lights."
I said to myself, "This is nonsense; you haven't been bothered
by the dark for years; just go to sleep." So I laid down
to fall asleep, when suddenly I had a feeling of a spirit alighting
on my chest. I said, "Oh no, not again," and jumped
up out of bed and switched on the light. "Whatever it is,
I'm getting rid of it!" I grabbed in the air and seemed to
hold onto something. I yanked it with me and walked into the bathroom,
opened the window, and threw it out of my hands. Wherever it went,
it seemed to go down. I said, "Oh God, thank goodness I got
rid of that." I went back into my room and said to myself,
"Okay, there's nothing to worry about. Now you can go to
sleep."
So I turned off the lights and went back to bed, and again there
was this feeling of something hovering over me. I started to jump
out of bed once more, when a voice seemed to come through to me
like mental telepathy, saying, "Don't get upset; don't worry.
I'm not here to harm you, but I have to tell you my story. I'm
so upset."
So I asked in my mind, "What's your story?"
A woman spirit told me she had been murdered by her husband, who
then had committed suicide or in some way died. The two of them
were buried in the yard. Then as time went on, the yard was destroyed,
and a roadway was paved over that area. Her grave was underneath
the alley where I had felt uneasy. She said that she had been
hovering over her grave, because she could not forgive her husband
for murdering her. Not being able to forgive, she was trapped
with his spirit (the same one that I threw out the bathroom window).
She had been there for about two centuries. I asked how she could
be released from the position in which she had put herself.
She said, "I was a Catholic; if you pray the rosary for me,
maybe I can learn to forgive myself." So I started praying
the rosary and feeling empathy for her. I felt her tears hitting
my cheeks and said to myself, "Yes, she is forgiving herself;
she is coming out of it." Then I felt her getting lighter
and lighter until finally I knew it was time for her to depart.
I had finished the rosary and said, "Okay, it's time now
for you to go. Everything is going to be all right." I took
her to the window and let her out. I actually felt her rising
from my hand. It was a beautiful experience.
I was brought up a Catholic and deeply believed in the Virgin
Mary and all that she represents. I thought if I went to Lourdes
and drank water from the miraculous stream, that maybe I would
be healed of the narcolepsy I'd had for eight years. The first
night I spent in Lourdes, the room I was in was very cold. So
I asked for a heater, and a warm heater was brought in that lit
up the whole room with a pink glow. I went to sleep and immediately
went out of body and found myself knowing that the presence of
the Virgin, or whatever she represents, was in my room, but I
was unable to look at her. I said through mental telepathy, "I
am not worthy to look at you."
She said, "That isn't true. There is only one thing that
you have to do to reach a greater sense of yourself."
I asked, "What is that?"
She said, "I have a friend here whom you must forgive."
Standing next to her was my former roommate whom I had had some
problems with, and whom I had more or less left when I went and
involved myself with a community of people. So I embraced her
and felt like everything was cleared. Then I saw the Virgin smiling
at me, saying, "Now walk through the wall.
I replied, "What? I can't do that."
She said, "Of course you can. You're out of body. It's just
an experience to go through."
I said, "All right." I started walking into the wall,
and the wall seemed to move into infinity; it kept going into
space further and further back. I found that I was doing the same;
I was moving into infinity. Then I woke up.
I went to the Lourdes shrine the next day, and felt ecstatic;
I was dancing through the streets. I arrived at the shrine, and
I took some of the water and drank it. I felt it was a healing
water, but I still felt that it wasn't going to get rid of the
narcolepsy.
When I was in Athens, climbing the hill of the Acropolis on a
tour, I went through a deja vu experience. It was daytime
and raining, but suddenly I thought I was in a candle-light procession
singing hymns as we were going to the top of the Acropolis hill
at night. When I got to the top of the hill, the sun came out,
and again I was in present time, looking with wonder at the golden
light reflecting off the temple pillars and broken walls. I was
ecstatic with the beauty of it all and went dancing away seeing
one building after another. I went into the Parthenon which is
the temple dedicated to Athena, and if I really listened, I could
hear a thousand voices singing. I kept feeling this music inside
of myself, and I wanted to dance and shout and express so much
joy at being in such a beautiful temple. I walked to the edge
of the archway and looked out over the city, and suddenly a revelation
came to me about woman's creative expression. Woman is deeply
represented in Athena, and I felt Athena and the Virgin are the
same. I was so excited over realizing this that I almost fell
into a big pool of water.
During my first Aura Balance, John-Roger came in, put his hand
on my back and told me he was removing a thought form that was
draining me. That was my narcolepsy. He yanked this thing out
of my back. Later I asked him, "What was that?"
He said, "If I told you what it was, you might pull it back
to yourself, so I won't do that." For many months I really
felt great, like a changed person. As the memory pattern had been
with me for nine years, at times I still wanted to slip back into
the sleepiness.
In my Light Reading, John-Roger told me about a past life where
I had been trained in self-hypnosis to go out of body. In this
lifetime I would hypnotize myself out of body. Thanks to John-Roger,
I realized what I had to do to overcome that. Now I'm exercising
on the beach, and losing weight, so that I can work with the Light
better. I also learned in my Light Study that many people, who
live in the same intentional community where I lived, were also
involved in a Tibetan lamasery around 400 or 500 A.D., which created
the group karma of our community. We are here to work out a need
to cooperate with one another on all levels - physically, emotionally,
intellectually, and finally spiritually. Those of us who have
brought the Light of the Holy Spirit to this community feel that
we are involved in a fantastic adventure.
Kathy Jeffares
In five years in the Movement of Spiritual Inner Awareness I have
gone from failure to mediocrity. That may sound funny, but if
one has another thirty or forty years on the planet, the possibilities
are staggering.
I entered chiropractic college an avowed atheist. But when I looked
at the perfection of body chemistry and function, I thought, "Wow!
There has to be a fantastic intelligence, a tremendous power behind
this whole operation." The healing arts offer a great chance
to learn to serve and grow. We have an axiom called LSMFT - loving
serving my first thought.
When I first started practice I was 22 years old and looked 14.
I was so self-conscious that the only patients I attracted would
come in and say, "My, you are a little young to be a doctor,
aren't you, sonny?" I would go through the roof.
I finally went to one of my colleagues and said, "Jim, I
keep having this same recurrent nightmare, while I'm awake."
After an in-depth discussion he said, "Keith, it sounds to
me like you are so concerned about yourself and your appearance
that you have no capacity to relate to and help other people.
People somehow sense this, and you keep getting negative responses."
When I learned to set myself aside and to be others-oriented,
I opened to be a greater channel of service. One can be three-foot
tall, green, and have three eyes, and still people will flock
to him. The love that transpires between individuals is the catalyst
for the healing process.
Keith Moore
A clinician is interested in restoration of health for the body,
while a technician is like a robot, going up and down the spine
hoping that the patient gets well. I examine and treat at the
same time. I put my fingers on the chakras and wait for a pulsation,
much like an acupuncture pulse diagnosis. This removes the congestion
from the ganglionic areas, where any emotional, intellectual,
or external insult registers as a blockage, called the shock syndrome.
This will block the flow of the fluid or lumen throughout the
tubes in the body. I first release the congestion of the lowest
chakra on the lowest ganglion. Each ganglion relates to a chakra.
In the mountains where there is snow starting to melt, first it
forms little tributaries, and eventually goes into big streams.
Would we find any cess pools or algae around the bank in springtime?
What happens in late summer when the water slows down? Vegetation.
That is exactly what is wrong inside the body. An insult, which
we traumatize with deep emotion, commanded on the conscious level,
goes down to the subconscious level, and then eventually to the
adrenal glands, the stress glands of the body. From the adrenals
it bounces back around the pancreas which harbors the emotions.
65 to 70% of the blood stream goes through the pancreas;
so what we block or impede in the pancreas backlashes to other
areas throughout the whole circuit.
There is an etheric pulse both underneath and over the arterial
pulse. Basically, I am feeling the soul. My fingers are so sensitive
that I can feel the tension or stress of the body. So I unstress
it. I can determine how emoted a person is, and if they had a
fight last night, etc. If one is pregnant, she is the host, and
the baby is the parasite. To feed the parasite there is a tube
between the two, and a peristaltic wave, like an ocean wave, moves
through the tube to feed the baby. Seventeen weeks later we have
a new pulsation inside the woman's abdomen, as the baby has a
heart functioning before being delivered. Now there are two pulsations:
the original and the heart, arteries, and veins. The baby is eventually
delivered, and we cut the cord. Here is the secret of life. What
happens to that previous pulsation after the cord is cut? Does
it vanish, or does it remain, with the mother, or with the baby
for the rest of his life? It is there - always is and always will
be as long as he is alive. It relates to the silver cord. This
pulsation doesn't vary: 68 pulsations per minute. The heart, arteries,
and veins will speed up or slow down, but the one I am talking
about is related to the internal mucousa of the body. This is
constant, but through deep emotion, we can block it. We are attempting
to let go through meditation. Detaching and letting go is balance.
One has a body here for a span of life. It is loaned and doesn't
belong to the individual personality. But one might be impeding
the spirituality by blocking it on the mental. We command ourselves
on the negative side. The only positive part of the body is the
soul. A magnetized horseshoe will attract steel filings. We are
like sponges for negative thoughts. Watch every thought, every
word, every deed. Consciously eliminate negativity, because eventually
the subtleties on the negative side will block. If it blocks the
physical, it blocks the spiritual.
Nature has to restore its own balance. We say, "Physician,
heal thyself." All I can do is restore the balance so that
the patient can heal his own self. If we learn to understand the
subtleties of emotional factors blocking ourselves, we can cope
with them and change or dissolve them. If one wants change within
himself, he can command himself to change. Ask and receive. Some
people go under meditation hoping that this good Creator is going
to change things for them, but they have to make the effort on
the positive side. When they do, they will change it. How can
one stay positive? It is the restoration of balance. What did
Jesus say to the man who was blind and then was cured? He told
him not to go through the same life path again, because he created
his own problem with deep emotions. Where does arthritis come
from? From crystallized personalities - people who know everything
and aren't going to change. Diabetes affects the sweet type of
people who harbor their emotions on the inside - a "peace
at any price" type. Be careful with the emotions. Sometimes
we watch ourselves and think we are positive when we are negative.
Have clarification; don't be fooled. The body doesn't lie.
My concentration is at the end of my fingertips, but I am always
tuned with what I am doing. I am throwing the white Light from
the end of my fingertips, although people may not be aware of
that. When someone is depressed or emoted, I throw them off balance
by telling a joke, changing their trend of thought to get them
out of themselves. It is part of the healing program.
The kundalini is around the sacrum; it is the carnal sexual drive.
The spade is mentioned in the Bible; the sacrum
is shaped like a spade, which digs our degradation on the carnal
level. We have to overcome that drive to grow spiritually. For
this reason priests went away from the external world. Also the
Bible mentioned seven churches, or spirits. Those are the
seven chakras. Physiologically they are nerve centers. During
meditation when reaching a certain level and knowing it, one can
for the betterment of everyone command himself and ask for a change
within. This is the mystery of the upward pattern. One can dissolve
and transmute chakra imbalances. When we understand the simplicity,
we get rid of the complexity. We learn to define ourselves inside
of ourselves. The most powerful word is the "I," the
"I Am." The "I Am" is in tune with the universal.
When we reach this level, we envelope ourselves in the white Light.
We can use the HU or the vowels, A, E, I, O, and U in a resonating,
rolling motion, vibrating on all octaves to stimulate practically
every chakra of the body. The glands are the booster stations
of the body, its guardian angels. Spirit transfers through the
glandular system; that is the secret. If we talk to the glands,
we acquaint ourselves with the "I Am" inside and become
a good friend to ourselves. Once we have gotten to a new frontier,
we have eliminated the fear level. I am a pioneer within myself.
I strive for increased spirituality and attunement within myself.
I feel that one has to unlearn to relearn and grow. Once one admits
he doesn't know, then life changes. I stay within the white Light
of the Christ, the Grace within myself.
Dr. Floyd C. Davis, D.C.
For a long time I was hung up on my art. It was frustration,
aggravation, perspiration, and rarely inspiration and fulfillment.
I was trying to create perfection through that expression. I related
the negativity I was creating to my art, and soon I was blocked
altogether. This went on for a few years until a Light Study with
John-Roger brought forward the knowledge that perfection resides
in the soul. Creating in art could come forward through that consciousness.
The blocks to my expression were lifted, and a new consciousness
was initiated. I was opened to new horizons. Now I work from the
soul to create my art, and I am happy with it.
I find I am not attached to the end result, for the expression
is a reflection of where I am. I am no longer hassled about putting
perfection down on paper. I use my tools as a means for the consciousness
of God - the Source of creation. This Consciousness can flow through
now clearer than ever.
One experience I had was bringing forward an image that people
could identify as the Movement of Spiritual Inner Awareness. There
were some changes in my attitude toward this new project. My feeling
was, "It just doesn't matter how it turns out." When
I let go, it come forward. When I stopped holding, it started
flowing. It has budded out into one of the most learning and growing
experiences of my life. The love that I have always felt is manifesting
here and now. I let the living love come forward
in everything I do. To work is to love, and love is to work.
Bill Glazier
In this lifetime I express as an artist and teacher. I can allow
the Light to fill me and teach through my art, and then the art
can open people to their inner treasures. Art can remind people,
"Look within; look within.'' Our spiritual unfoldment is
being aware of our true nature. The function of the teacher is
the facilitator. The student has to teach himself. I feel that
the best teacher is the best student, who is learning so much,
so intensely, so joyfully, that he provides an example for his
students. I work to respect my students and listen carefully as
they tell me in many ways what might really work for them. Often
I sit down and work beside my students, explaining the problems
I'm working on. The level of mastery I represent is then not so
aloof and unapproachable. They may also gain insight from the
way I tackle a problem.
Rev. Diana Davies
The first time I received a song that I knew I hadn't made up
out of my own consciousness, I was playing the guitar alone, going
over two chords. Suddenly words started coming through. I wrote
them down and saved them for a long, long time. This was before
my role as "that girl who sings and plays the guitar instead
of talking" during contributions.
I feel as though I am a helium-filled balloon bouncing against
the ceiling. I know there is a trap door up there, and whenever
I am in a clear state of mind, the door will open. I will go through
and collect words, poems, or a series of phrases, and bring them
down. They may have no visible connection or meaning to me, but
I will save them because I know sooner or later there will be
a giant cogwheel coming through to roll over these words and sort
them in the right order. Then I put music to them by simple chording,
as I am not a professional musician. Sometimes I hear the entire
song sung for me several times, as if on tape, so that I can stop
it and take it down. It comes in different ways, and it gets clearer
and clearer. Part of my spiritual growth is to accept what I hear
and write it down better.
When I am alone, things become clearer, as I am not involved in
other people's lives. Going out dissipates my energy, forestalling
the future. I know songs are here. I only have to be still, quiet,
and go within to bring them through. Often the songs correspond
to my inner growth in that I can only go that far bringing songs
through. I am not allowed to have any more until I have eaten
what is on my plate.
Rev. Penelope Rutherford
Our biggest thrill was traveling with J-R and the Light Staff
in Europe and India. We have been singing Light songs since our
experience with bhajans at Puttaparthi, India, in Sai Baba's ashram.
One morning in the open air temple I sat cross-legged in the midst
of thousands of Hindus singing the chants which Baba had written.
I got into the flow of the rhythm, and it really carried me. After
that Michael Sun wrote some songs, and Muriel and I wrote some
called Jars, because of the J-R sound, and because they are vessels
for carrying the Light. The movement of our individual spiritual
awareness wrote our songs.
Keith Moore
The Jars, which have the J-R sound, or as Keith says, "John
Almighty Rogers,'' are Light songs and vessels carrying Light
and Sound. One morning I was doing my John-ji's, and the tune
of a Jar came to me. I wanted to give John-Roger a gift for Christmas,
and I thought this is my gift, not only the Jar, but my expression.
I sang it to him at a seminar. He transmuted it and gave it back
to everyone, and my Light was shared through this. It was a shift
in consciousness for me.
The poem
I'm glad you asked he said to me
To get peace and tranquillity
You might say your HUs and your John-jis
And this you know will help you grow
It occurred to me, he meant spiritually
The Jar
John-ji John-ji
Oh come to me
John-ji John-ji
With Light and Sound
O purple ray with flecks of green
Be still my mind
Be still my mind
John-ji John-ji
Muriel Moore
"My God, J-R, I'm on a roller coaster."
"The roller coaster is on the track," replied John-Roger.
As usual he was right. The track is MSIA and the Mystical Traveler
Consciousness. It has its ups and downs, but always there is great
strength and stability.
Reaching out from torture's torment
From my base which is this moment
Christened by my work's devotion
Constant, ever constant motion.
It is present.... It is certain.
Lifting now this toil-worn curtain,
Which has bound and crushed and hurt me.
Behold, the Light does not desert me.
Passing through and pressing onward.
By this passion extended forward
Into that precious joyous instant,
Uniting, vibrant, omnipresent.
Here is bliss and bliss's knowing,
Expanding ever, growing, growing.
Tall as timber, wide as ever.
The land across that fabled river.
Here I find what has been needed,
Answering my prayer so oft repeated.
Fill I here with joy resplendent.
Clutch to my breast that purple pendant.
Love and strength fill up my being,
Pumped and pressed to overflowing.
Take I now this blessed refreshment
Back into my soul's apartment.
Having glimpsed my destination
Having quickened soul's vibration
Work I now with gifts of glory
Writing down my own life's story.
That really says it for me. Through the Mystical Traveler Consciousness
and the spirit of MSIA, we work our plan and write our own story.
It is a right and wonderful way, though not always easy.
Keith Moore
When I had my Light Study, the first thing John-Roger said was,
"Have you ever written poetry?" I knew he knew what
he was doing, because poetry is important in my life. Whenever
I was positive in my life path, I was writing poetry, and when
I was searching for the golden track I was writing poetry.
However, I had created an attitude of, "I can't do it, and
it's not any good anyway. I'm not going to write poems, because
it's only an ego manifestation, and that's not spiritual."
After that I started writing poems again, and within a few months
I had written as many poems since my Light Study as I had written
in my life prior to that time.
When the seminars started in Berkeley, we had a reason to be together
and be friends. John-Roger has said that love is not two people
looking at each other; love is looking in the same direction.
These people who had been shuffling their feet and looking at
each other trying to get together for so long were now looking
in the same direction, and things were falling together.
A group of us drove down to Los Angeles for Aura Balances and
Light Studies. We were sitting around the table, and John-Roger
was talking to us. He played a tape of Florence Jolley's "The
Light Has Come" and Larry Hartstein's song, when in my consciousness
I heard, "Look around; you've found it. This is what you've
been looking for. This man is your master." I was crying
through the songs.
On the way home I wrote a poem that started. "We walked unknowingly
into another dimension guided faultlessly by an unknown traveler
onto secret paths through hidden doorways to which he held the
keys." It ended, "He walked away into his own universe.
We found ourselves back in our daily realities, but as he left,
we could hear his parting words echoing through time: 'I have
taken you on this journey that you may know what your inner worlds
look like. When you see this place again, know then you have found
the first key.'"
Vera M. Sedler
During my first Light Study John-Roger told me that I was here
to express and to create. I mentally said to myself, "I don't
think that is quite true, but I will see what else he has to say
about me." At that time, I was not writing or doing much
of anything. I didn't feel like I was creative or that I could
express. I was very frustrated with myself, mainly because I had
been unable to find a job in which I was happy, challenged, or
fulfilled. I had just quit my job and was feeling worthless.
I was about to go to bed, feeling low, when Michael came into
the room and said, "Do you want to listen to a seminar tape?"
Even that was not going to entice me, but I said, "Might
as well." We had a large number of tapes, and he reached
into the bag and picked one out at random. I asked, "What
did you pick - Failure?" He answered yes. He started the
tape, and five minutes later both of us were completely out, in
a heavy sleep. I awoke about midnight, three or four hours later,
and the tape was going around and around. I turned the tape off
and could not wait to fall back down into bed again to go back
to sleep - I felt drugged. I went back to bed and was just about
out, when suddenly a funny little sentence started dancing through
my mind. I said, "Oh, that's pretty good; I'm going to have
to remember that tomorrow - that's really funny. So I made a mental
note, hoping it would stick. A second one suddenly came into mind
- and I said, "That one is pretty good too; I'll have to
remember both of those." Then came a third and a fourth and
soon about six of them. I thought, "Oh my God, I'm not going
to remember all these in the morning; this is terrible. Where
is it all coming from, anyway?" I was still half asleep.
Finally I realized I would have to drag myself out of bed and
get a pencil and paper and write them down so I wouldn't forget
by morning. After forty-five minutes, I realized I had written
an entire book. The words had all been in my mind, waiting for
my awareness to become clear enough to see them. When it did,
it was like taking a plug out - the words started falling out,
channeled through my head. It was one o'clock in the morning,
and I realized I had never written anything like it before in
my life.
Now when I am told inwardly that a book or a work is ready to
come through me, I still wonder if it is true. When I do sit down
and call in the Light and the Mystical Traveler Consciousness,
my consciousness is so filled with Light that I feel I am enchanted.
I am not aware of the physical things that are going on, but simply
that something strange is going on inside of me. When I come to
the end of the writing, I have such a feeling of fulfillment that
it is probably the greatest joy I know.
The next morning after the book came through, I decided that,
"This should be a book. I wish I could draw. Maybe I could
just draw stick figures...." So I assembled a rather crude
version of the book and had much fun with it. I thought I would
take it to John-Roger, because he might get a kick out of it,
as it related to him and the Movement. I brought it to him and
said, "I have something for you," and didn't know how
he was going to act.
He immediately took it, opened it up to the first page, and said,
"Oh yeah," like he had been waiting for it. "I
want to read this." One of the later stories I wrote got
out of his hands before he could read it, but he had seen it on
the other side. When I asked him about it, he had to remember
on which side he had seen it. We finally found it on this side.
Vivian Joseph
During my second Light Study, John-Roger said to me, "You
know, I see writing ability here."
I replied, "I used to write feature articles and poems on
the high school and college papers, but I didn't feel it was great
writing ability. I've had a strong desire to write this past year
but haven't even been able to write silly poetry." John-Roger
told me not to worry, because I was going through a change so
that my writing could become spiritualized. Nothing happened with
it in the following two weeks; so I forgot about it.
Eleven months later I was sitting at my office desk during lunch,
and suddenly I got a tremendous urge to write something. I didn't
know what, but I took out a tablet and with pen in hand started
writing down the thoughts that were coming forth so rapidly I
could hardly keep up with them. I was wondering if I was even
going to be able to read them. About 45 minutes later the communication
stopped, and I read what I had written. The Inner Master identified
himself to me in this uplifting message. I used to get thoughts
every once in a while, and I wanted to believe it was the Inner
Master. So I accepted that it was, and from this experience I
really knew it!
From that day on, every single day, at least one discourse or
poem would come through me. As experiences at work occurred, I
would realize the lessons and feel that I had to write them down.
Other times I would remember lessons and experiences from night
travel, and upon awakening a discourse or a poem would come forth.
That is how my first book came about. I don't think of the words;
I just relax and bypass the mind, and these things come forth
from the consciousness.
Later John-Roger told me the writings were coming from the Mystical
Traveler Consciousness. He also said there were four or five others,
one of whom is Omar Khayyam, who work with him from the other
side who would, at times, bring these messages to my consciousness.
He said this was going to be a book and that I did spend one year
of training on the night side to learn to tap into this Consciousness.
Most of the writings come through within 30 to 45 minutes, and
the poems usually within 5 minutes. He explained that this is
not automatic writing, as no one takes me over. I merely tap into
the consciousness. I wanted to make sure that my own influence
did not get into the writings. So one day I tried to direct the
flow by putting my mind into it and thinking about what was coming
out, trying to slant it a certain way. I was happy to see the
information was shut off. So I knew it was coming from the Consciousness.
Louise Wyatt
The point at which I consciously began my personal movement towards
spiritual inner awareness was two years ago when I began writing
a book. Actually the book began writing me. It was not going to
be any ordinary book; no indeed, it was going to be the next best
thing to the Bible - maybe better! I like to deal in large
concepts; it's easier to move the pieces around. I was swamped
with an overwhelming feeling of disenchantment. The Revolution
was going poorly; my job was crowding my freedom; my body kept
breaking down; and I was being "used" by a global conspiracy
whose sole purpose was to rob me of any vestige of real selfhood
that I had left. The years before had been spent taking on other
people's viewpoints, and the whole thing was beginning to disturb
the innermost me. It did more than disturb me; it disgusted me.
So, in August of 1971, I quit my employment and began my work.
Much has come forward since I began this project, not the least
of which has been my introduction to MSIA.
Initially, my book was a skeleton of a larger story composed of
various short stories I had constructed. These stories would somehow
come together to form the central theme, which simply was that
this world would crumble if we continued to lose our sense of
honesty - novel idea. All of this was going to be expressed through
the medium of my protagonist, Alex Einhorn. Alex would be a unicorn
of a man who spirits himself in and out of people's lives, sprinkling
them with wonderment and then moving on. Through a series of strange
events Alex becomes a third-party candidate for President of the
United States on the Messiah ticket. A fine story indeed.
However, as I sat down to write this epic, huge areas of incredulity
arose, and I was hit with the sobering realization that I was
not yet prepared to do this work. First I had to do my homework.
I had to give my protagonist something to believe in - some new
insight into himself that could benefit all mankind. He would
at least need a unique vision of his place in the universe. But
what could that be? All I had knowledge of was a series of platitudes
memorized as a child to keep from failing any given class. Even
in college I was nothing more than an adept recording device that
handed back to the professor information that he already knew.
How in the world could I put forth a cosmic view so startlingly
new that the course of history would be altered? My only hope
was to find out what were the current viewpoints on existence
and go one step further.
It wasn't long before I was knocking on doors at California Institute
of Technology and the Jet Propulsion Laboratories asking questions
that in less tolerant times would have sent new-thinkers to the
stake. The physicists I interviewed were patient with me as they
answered my queries about the construction of the universe. But
a very disquieting thing happened when I pressed these men of
science beyond the textbook replies. It usually took an extra
cup of coffee, but what evolved was that each one of them had
his own little idea hidden in the back of his mind regarding the
purpose of this or any other universe. The alarmingly simple question,
"Well, why do you think we are here?" brought such an
array of responses that I was sure we are no more advanced in
our knowledge of purpose than Homo Erectus.
As disarming as these inquiries were, they were not without their
moments of reward. One such occasion occurred when discussing
the construction of infinity with a master astronomer. Spurred
by something larger than myself, I asked, "Doctor, in all
your investigations and discoveries concerning the universe, has
there ever been any evidence which demonstrated that there is
a Divine Order guiding the stars?"
The highly respected professor closed his eyes, placed his hand
to his forehead and after several minutes of deep concentration
replied, "You know, for fifty years I have been observing
the heavens but forgot to look for God!" He thanked me and
walked away muttering that he must look into that.
About this same time it became apparent that my protagonist should
not only have some knowledge of the physical world but also of
the metaphysical world. If he was to be a messiah, he would have
to have some qualities that would convince even the most skeptical
audience. As I asked around, I began to realize that a number
of my friends had already been availing themselves of the various
organizations in the Los Angeles area that dealt with the Spirit.
"Spirit" is a magnificently misleading word. To a young
man who had twelve years of parochial school and almost entered
a Roman Catholic Seminary, "Spirit" referred either
to the Third Person of the Holy Trinity or to those happenings
of the occult which occurred behind sequestered doors and which
could not be discussed except in whispers. Still, I was in the
midst of numerous orientations toward self-knowledge. I knew I
would have to go beyond their ceremonies and apprehend what it
was that religiously brought these people together.
Almost overnight I found words like "karma" and "chakra"
surfacing into the vocabularies of my closest friends. Each and
every concept had to be scrutinized for validity lest I fall into
my old pattern of getting caught up in the novelty of the viewpoint,
rather than in the spirit of it. There was that word again! I
couldn't avoid it. Wherever I went there was this common denominator
of Spirit. Each orientation had outward differences which seemed
to stem from individual needs for tradition, but they all possessed
the inner knowledge that what they were doing was right. Ingrained
in all the approaches was a down-home, ain't-no-doubt-about-it
conviction that they were being guided by and toward Truth.
I remember my first seminar as a spectacularly uneventful occurrence.
Penelope Townsend Rutherford invited me to a taped seminar at
Gary Collier's home, and I had expectations of a seance or something
equally entertaining. The people were nice, a little dingy, but
nice. I still reserved the right to be analytical and not rush
into anything. My first impression after the seminar was that
J-R was a sharp salesman selling Judeo-Christian ethics, but it
might as well have been used cars as far as I was concerned. Yet
I found myself going back for more, and shortly I discovered I
could be as dingy as anyone I had met. I realized that I could
talk about my innermost experiences and not be chastised for it
among people in the Light. I had had experiences in encounter
groups, with psychiatrists, and various counselors, but even there
I had felt inhibited from discussing events that I felt were peculiar
to me regarding my relationship to a God Consciousness. There
was a Renaissance going on, and I was just walking into it!
Now it is with a sense of ministry that I have given myself over
to the task of sharing the information which is coming forward
in preparation for what I believe to be the largest re-evaluation
of our place in the universe since the end of the Dark Ages. Working
in the Light has led me to some strange and beautiful places,
and wherever I have gone it has been with the knowledge that I
am being compelled by cosmic circumstance. It is not an uncommon
day when I end up having a discussion about the Spirit with a
corporation executive or a pilgrim on a park bench. There is a
conspiracy afoot of the highest order; an attempt to raise our
level of consciousness is engulfing us. It is the most benign
assault our sensibilities can accommodate, because it is attacking
us on all sides of our insensibilities. The fact that there are
so many people asking so many questions is proof that new answers
will have to be formulated. And these new answers will create
still newer questions until there are no more ironies. One of
the most beguiling thoughts which has surfaced is that we are
all so insignificant, and yet we are so monumental. Not one of
us will be forgotten - there is conservation in all forms of energy.
Actually, it is now clear to me that I am not the only one writing
my book. I have found many people in MSIA and elsewhere who have
set about to do the same thing I have been doing, except that
their vehicles are uniquely different. All of us are looking for
a better way to take care of the business of being. We want a
more viable approach to encounter destiny. It is because of this
that I have titled my yet unfinished book, "Promise."
All philosophies or ideologies have at least one thing in common
- that things will be better. Every system of belief proposes
that if it is espoused then the world will be better off. Each
of us can contribute to the social-spiritual evolution of man
simply by realizing our own potential. This is not an easy task;
then again it is the easiest undertaking of all. All I have to
do is become vulnerable to infinity. I don't mean becoming non-selective,
blissful ninnies, but I do want to point out that everything we
ever wanted is right here, right now. Our challenge is to likewise
be right here, right now, openly, honestly - in thought, in word,
indeed!
Tony Luna
In March 1972 the opportunity for setting up a house for people
in MSIA came forward. Marj Graham, a realtor in MSIA, showed it
to me, and it looked neat. At that time I think it had a "thought
form" over it, preventing it from being sold.
On the other side there were discussions between the people who
were going to live there, whom I didn't recognize, because I never
saw their faces. This was a conscious memory from the dream state.
We decided to go ahead, but there wasn't any energy being put
into fixing up the house. One has to put creative energy into
one's dreams to make them work. In one conversation on the other
side, J-R pointed this up, asking, "What is being done? Are
you fixing up the house yet?"
I came on with a little ego force, because when I said, "It's
getting done," the dream terminated. The next day I found
myself at the house with Rick Greene scrubbing the walls and ceiling.
We decided the color of the interior wasn't conducive to the feeling
that we wanted; so we painted it, with the help of other people.
Again, in the dream state we discussed the house, and the next
day Marj Graham presented the lease. I took the initiative, and
by signing the lease solidified the intent to go ahead with this
experimental Light action.
We asked the Light to be put on the house. When moving into a
house, it is sometimes helpful to either wash or paint the walls,
because people who live in a house leave their creative patterns
there. When walking into a room one may feel uneasy because of
thought forms or emotional disturbances that have been created
by violent arguments, deaths, etc. The Light, with the help of
our work, cleared the house.
People who live here have decided to tune themselves very greatly
with MSIA. We are open to each other in our feelings, and our
concerns are brought out in group meetings. With the action of
the Light everything fell into place like a jigsaw puzzle. The
Light has moved various people in and out of the house to solve
situations within their consciousness. There is a trend among
people in the Movement towards living together in Light communities.
"Like attracts like," or in our case, "Light attracts
Light."
Gregory K. Stebbins
I had never wanted to be part of a group, and I was leery of communal
living. I was too independent and was not ready to "sacrifice
myself for the group." When I got into MSIA, I was in a group
without even wanting to be, and I didn't have to sacrifice anything.
I felt love for all these beautiful people. When the Castle appeared,
I had the opportunity to move in with some Light people. No one
tried to create a group consciousness. That had always made me
feel funny when people would talk about being part of the group
- how one can't do such and such because that's not part of the
group consciousness and all the forms of control that get involved
with that. Here there was no need to create it, as each person
is independent. Ultimately we are all moving in the same direction.
Vera M. Sedler
The Light Castle is not communal but emphasizes independence with
reinforcement on focusing on the Light. A big concern for me is
to get into a higher consciousness, to get up above the illusions
that I'm caught in, so I can see more clearly. I let Spirit come
in to dissolve them. I would call this Grace. There is a song
called "Amazing Grace," and every time I hear it I think
of J-R. Being around Light people helps to point out the illusions
while allowing an openness and freedom of expression. It means
not to be concerned whether one does right or wrong, especially
when those around are saying, "Yes, it's okay. If I can help
you I will, and if you do it yourself, that's fine too."
The action becomes one of moving into what we already are - perfection.
It is a constant state of change or movement. If I think I have
something nailed down, it moves. If I try to hold onto it, it
brings in confusion. Within the consciousness of the Movement,
things are not fixed; so there is not a constant clarity within
my consciousness. Sometimes understanding comes in, and it is
fantastic to be able to see. But then I move on. While this is
going on, the love for the Mystical Traveler is here, sustaining.
I have spent much time in negativity, rejecting other people,
and of course, it came right on me, the creator. I just couldn't
express love; the words would stick in my throat. Love was blocked
from flowing through my consciousness. But now it is so grand
to see the love and joy that is and to know that it is my inheritance
and everyone else's also. I sometimes find myself looking at people
not knowing where they are coming from, nor am I able to understand
them. I might not be interested in sitting down and talking with
them, but I know they are moving upward in an eternal progression.
My heart fills with love to see that we're all going there. Many
times when I am experiencing difficulties, the answer is "more
love."
After each seminar John-Roger says, "Baruch Bashan,"
meaning "the blessings already are." To me, the Beloved
is a living manifestation of this. The greatest action I can conceive
is to move into It and to use every opportunity to lift.
Jim Peterson
Being able to flow yet still maintaining my own center has been
an important lesson, especially in Astrologos with eight other
adults and five children. I am learning to stay in balance and
not get too far off into a mental or an emotional trip. Astrologos
is a mirror reflecting the inner self, a testing ground where
I use the Light and astrology to learn life's lessons.
Rick Castellanos
Whatever one wants to tune into and make a reality, one can. People
who never thought they could do things, just do them. It seems
that we are coming into more of a group consciousness, and I expect
to see many Light communities throughout the world. Maximum efficiency
will be utilized, which requires cooperation and technical know-how.
Using these in a Light consciousness will bring a reduction of
material inequalities. I don't think it will necessarily be a
Utopia, but I do think the Movement can and will show a way to
greater equality and fulfillment, even on the physical level.
This will bridge the dichotomy that so many of us feel about our
work, wishing we were independent to do what we wanted to do.
I feel my work should be what I love to do. I used to get very
riled about political forms, but now I don't have to get involved.
To me, this is not a cop out, because there are alternatives.
Creativity is building one's own universe.
Michael-Walter Joseph
The Light Studies given by Dr. John-Roger Hinkins are
conducted through the direction of the person's high self. The
primary purpose is to awaken one spiritually by bringing forward
the information about one's life path, character traits, karmic
relationships, etc., and how to work with these for the highest
good.
In Aura Balances members of the MSIA Staff work with the Light
of the Holy Spirit and the Mystical Traveler Consciousness to
release negative thoughts and emotions which people have experienced
and then held within the auric force field. Radiant energies are
brought from different dimensions, using a pendulum as the tool
to focus these energies into the aura, tuning up the electro-magnetic
force fields of the body, bringing balance and greater spiritual
receptivity.
Innerphasings, given by the MSIA Staff, bring change in the area
of the basic self, which includes the subconscious mind but goes
even deeper. The basic self is the origin of many habitual responses;
the processes learned on this level are recorded and played over
and over through the unconscious levels, much like a continually
repeating record. Through the Light of the Holy Spirit and the
Mystical Traveler Consciousness, Innerphasings can be an effective
way to remove blocks and free oneself from repetitious patterns
by ''programming out" old, undesirable responses, and "programming
in" new, desirable responses.
I scheduled a Light Study and Aura Balance. I went to Rama Fox's
house in Miami with such expectation - so scared that I didn't
know how to act. I had never seen John-Roger before, only having
heard him on tapes. He walked down the stairs and said, "How
are you, Michael?"
The only physical contact I had had with him was once when someone
was talking to him on the phone from Miami, and I had to talk
to him. So I just said, "I don't know if you know me or not;
I'm Michael; I wanted to say that I love you." It sounded
stupid when I hung up the phone, and I wished I hadn't said it.
I saw how natural he was when he came down - I had expected him
to float down. He gave me a Light Study, and one thing after another
broke loose as he talked. I realized what illusionary thoughts
I had of spirituality when I saw it was a completely natural process.
I had been seeking this, but I had looked toward wearing a turban,
sitting cross-legged, or walking with folded hands. Spirit is
a lifting process, and he immediately replaced my illusions with
a lifting action.
Rev. Michael Sun
I scheduled a Light Study with John-Roger, one of the few ones
where he did measurements. He was measuring the spatial relationships
of my face, and every time he would touch me I would pass out.
While he was measuring my jaw, the blood would go shoom, right
down out of my head. I'd say, "I think I've got to lie down."
He'd laugh and go get me some water. I'd sit up and say, "Okay,
I feel all right now." I'd drink some water. Then he'd touch
me again, and I'd go zonk; this happened four times.
He was laughing and laughing and finally said, "Part of it
is the Spirit coming in to align things, but also you needed a
little proof."
I was very defensive, thinking, "No, not me; I believe you
John-Roger." I'm glad that happened though, because every
bit of phenomena substantiates my belief.
Gregory S. Smith
The Light Studies by John-Roger tuned into things within myself
that were so close to me that I couldn't see them. When he mentioned
them, there was great clarity, and I could move away from them.
If those same patterns started to reoccur, I could catch them
soon enough.
Rev. Barbara Shere
One personality trait that came out of my Light Study was my feeling
of being cut off and alone in a group. He said that I could break
through this pattern by introducing myself to fifty people. "Hi,
my name is John. How are you?" I decided it was a good idea
and started at a supermarket in Newport Beach, California, but
I only introduced myself to a couple of people. Next I did it
in Isla Vista, a UCSB student community. This time I introduced
myself to about thirty people, although I would skip those who
looked unfriendly. Finally one day between classes I started from
the middle of campus and, even though I was scared, worked my
way toward the edge, determined not to miss anyone. I stopped
long enough to establish contact and then went on the next person.
By the time I had gotten through fifty, I was ready to keep going.
I broke through the pattern, which helped me to feel closer to
people.
John Lee
In a reading John-Roger indicated that I should start giving astrological
readings. I asked him why, since I was aware of the limitations
of astrology. He said, "You will use it as a tool. You will
start with astrological readings, but later you will lift and
read directly from the soul. But you will start there, because
you used to do this years ago with Solomon in his court of astrologers."
I thought, "Solomon and me used to hang out? Then why am
I so dumb now?" Never one to turn down an adventure, I plunged
in full ignorance and started probing into people's lives. Many
times my experiences with the Light would cause me to say some
weird things of which I had no knowledge of why I said them or
what the connection was. The person would take it within, look
at me strangely, and then relate fantastic occurrences due to
the one thing I said. I became more aware that John-Roger was
working with me. Many times I would set the chart aside, or we'd
be riding in a car, and I'd have to tune in directly. I found
this information to be as accurate as the chart; so I began relying
more on the intuition.
Henry Conyers
I had an Innerphasing which I had put off for a long time, because
the word "programming" had a negative connotation to
me. I didn't want to even work with my basic self. I wanted to
go straight into Spirit and soul travel. It turned out to be totally
different than I had anticipated. The idea is to clarify and arrange
things to move into greater spirituality and cooperation within
my levels. I worked with that Innerphasing overtime, listening
to it twice a day for about two months. I must have put this tremendous
charge to change, change, change, because all of a sudden everything
changed. It was the only time that I ever felt that Spirit had
taken me to my 99.9% level out of 100%.
Gregory S. Smith
I've always been in a job where I've had to work through personality
conflicts. There was a time when if someone didn't smile at me
I wanted to cry, because I felt that person didn't like me. I
had to learn to overcome these sensitive emotions. I've been placed
in jobs where personality conflicts have had to be worked out,
and approximately every two years either my job or the personnel
changed. I was only in the situation as long as it took for me
to learn.
John-Roger says one never gets anything he can't handle. The first
three months I was in my present job, there were no personality
problems, because I was too busy learning the job itself. My boss
was beautiful to me. However, after I had the job under control,
a personality conflict came up between my boss and me. It lasted
for a year and a half, and I felt I was in a prison and that he
didn't like me. He made my basic self jittery, and communication
was blocked. I asked for and received much help from the other
side during night travel in working with my basic self. I began
to see how my attitude compounded everything. When I realized
this, I knew I was ready for an Innerphasing, for now my attitude
was one where I could accept it and work with it. I programmed
for confidence and attitude. I was shown how I could have confidence
in myself, and how if I changed my attitude toward myself, the
outer expressions of others would change. My basic self was made
to realize that he didn't have to handle anything at work; all
he had to do was be there to sustain me. I, the conscious self,
would take care of everything. My problem had been that I was
trying to tell the basic, "You have to handle this; you have
to make it right," and he started to fall apart, because
that is not his job. Through the Innerphasing I started to know
myself better and stopped believing what I thought my boss was
projecting toward me. The following Monday I started projecting
friendliness toward him and self-assurance of myself. I was no
longer afraid of him, and he no longer reflected negativity back
at me. He became friendly toward me, and before I knew it, I had
all the freedom at work that I needed. We came into rapport with
each other because of my new attitude. I am now using more conscious
direction and keeping more aware - observing, evaluating and learning
from each day's experience. I feel with this attitude that I can
learn more in less time.
Louise Wyatt
I went to a tape seminar at Reuben Paris' house and was strongly
attracted, but I had difficulty because my negativity was resisting.
I would call Reuben on the phone, because he seemed to be tuned
into what I wanted, and he would take off from work to come and
talk to me at his house. He was so beautiful, but I wouldn't accept
what he was telling me, even though I could still feel the love.
I met Phillip Anthony one night at a tape seminar and asked him
about J-R. I was interested in having either a Light Study or
an Innerphasing. Phillip told me a little about them and said
I could make an appointment, but it would take a while. However,
he could give me an Aura Balancing. I was impatient and started
fighting him with my negativity; so he just said, "Suit yourself."
I walked out the door, because I was having a hard time accepting
what he was telling me.
I got in my car to leave, but something inside me said, "Don't
be a dummy; go and try. It is okay, because you don't have to
believe anything or do anything other than show up." So I
went back in, made an appointment, and had an Aura Balance . Things
started changing around me, which surprised me. It was working,
even though I couldn't figure out how. Now I have my aura tuned
up every six months. It clears so many things, and there is a
beautiful serene feeling of purity when I'm clear and uncluttered.
Jim Peterson
I had a series of Aura Balances. I didn't feel anything during
the balances, and yet after them it was obvious something had
happened. After the physical balancing, I had to work late that
night, and when I got back to work I started feeling extremely
tired, as though I were drugged. I knew from Phil's explanation
that there are masters on the other levels of consciousness working
with one, even doing psychic operations for up to three days afterwards
and that one may feel the effects of many things. I felt as though
I were anaesthetized and kept drinking coffee and going to the
restroom, saying, "I want to stay awake if it is for my highest
good." No matter what I did, I became so tired I had to lie
down. Finally someone took me home. I didn't want to tell my boss,
a nice conservative Jewish man, that I had gone to have an Aura
Balance; so I said I went to see my doctor. I didn't have to explain
what kind of doctor. Dr. Hinkins is a Doctor of Divinity!
I stayed in bed most of the weekend and by Monday felt fine. While
I didn't feel anything mend physically, I felt there was something
that had been out of balance. When I had my emotional balancing,
I expected to feel either very high or very low because my emotions
had been out of balance since I incarnated, but nothing happened.
I was disappointed. A few weeks later people started telling me,
"You've changed. You're a lot nicer to be around."
(name removed by the person's request)
I would give Aura Balances credit for a great improvement in my
arthritic condition. Before the Aura Balances, I couldn't get
in or out of a car without some help, couldn't navigate too well
by myself, and whenever I weeded the garden, I couldn't straighten
up. The pain was very bad. Now I can weed and straighten up easily
without pain.
Hannah Wallis
When I got my first Aura Balance, John-Roger came into the room
and put his finger on my forehead and said, "Your third eye
really wants to open, but drugs have prevented that." I went
home and realized how much pain I had gone through, how much karma
I had produced, how much guilt I had around me, and how much I
had distorted my auric energy field. This man had just walked
in and taken years and years if not lifetimes of pain and struggling
from me. I was filled with so much Light I could hardly stand
it.
Then about a month later I came to Los Angeles for an emotional
Aura Balance. I had had a monkey on my back, and that was released.
I'd had much guilt tacked onto my basic self, which was released
during my spiritual Aura Balance. Guilt looks small when looked
at with the mind, but it can block the energy throughout one's
whole expression. I hadn't had a good hearty laugh at all in years
like I had at the end of my spiritual Aura Balancing.
David Allen
To develop greater spiritual consciousness one can
actively practice spiritual exercises, such as prayer, meditation,
chanting a tone or mantram, gazing into a candle flame or water,
or consciously directing the awareness into spiritual activities.
The Mystical Traveler Consciousness can work with one more who
is consciously focusing his attention and centering himself with
a spiritual exercise. After two years of study within MSIA, one
can be initiated into the Sound Current of God through the Mystical
Traveler Consciousness, giving one a direct connection into Spirit.
While on earth one can experience the heavenly realms through
Soul Transcendence.
As I understand it through my own experiences, spiritual
exercises are a way of re-focusing to fulfill our life destiny
and overcome our own blocks. I have sat down loaded with negative
situations, feeling physically weighted down and wondering how
I would ever get out of that. Then by doing spiritual exercises
for a half hour, focusing into higher dimensions, I am able to
come back with renewed strength and awareness. It's like being
born into a new world. To do this I have to let go of thinking
about the negative situation and focus on the spiritual exercise.
For me, this is cooperating with the Light.
Rev. Wesley A. Whitmore
For many days I used the spiritual exercise of looking in the
water, but it seemed as though nothing was happening. My children,
who knew I was looking in the water, presented me with a beautiful
crystal ball. However, I've had more success looking in the mirror.
I wanted to see my aura, and I knew that it could be reflected
back to me in the mirror. I'd heard people talking at seminars
about seeing their face so covered with Light that they could
scarcely see their own facial features. So I kept looking in the
mirror, and soon things began to change. My reflection in the
mirror looked like a photographic negative. The light part became
brighter, and the facial features disappeared. There was an aura
of a golden Light from the head. I concentrated on the top of
the head, because I knew that was where the silver cord is attached
to the body, and I hoped to see it. I saw a shadowy figure over
the head. I can understand why it might have been called a dove
settling on Jesus' head when he was baptized by John the Baptist.
Joseph Weed wrote that a person can concentrate on filling the
room with Light. I have seen a purple, electric blue color fill
the room behind me while looking in the mirror. So I know that
something is happening, and my spiritual eyes are beginning to
open.
Alma Clary
My first conscious spiritual experience came when I was out of
high school after a very difficult time, during which I would
go within and alienate myself from people for weeks on end. I
kept searching, questing, but I was looking the wrong way or with
the wrong attitude. At one point I said, "Forget it; I give
up. I am ready for something new." I was sleeping out on
a porch with windows all around. That night I was awakened to
semi-consciousness by the rain, which brought me back just enough
so that I had awareness of other levels of consciousness. One
consciousness was the body in the bed, and the other was my self
flying over landscape.
The colors were lush and green, and I could magnify things so
that they would get bigger anyplace I looked. I became aware of
a voice speaking over my right shoulder. It seemed completely
natural. The voice was directing and showing me another person
who was flying. It wasn't that I had a body, and it wasn't that
I didn't have a body; it wasn't important. The other person I
later found out was John-Roger working with me. This was three
or four years before I came into the Movement consciously), and
he was saying, "Watch how he moves; watch how he does it
- he gives up, lets go, and just does it." He was showing
me how to get out of the body, saying, "Now you try it."
I was in two consciousnesses at one time. I was aware of the consciousness
suspended in space, and the one on the bed. When he would say,
"Just let go,'' I would feel my body let go, and my consciousness
would rise.
Then the landscape changed and became tremendous colors, each
color becoming a reality, a field I was part of. I was no longer
a body. I was the colors, and I could still hear the voice say,
"Let go." I was taken by the colors and floated higher
and higher. Colors were coming around from all directions at the
same time. The colors then became music, and this whole action
was so powerful. As the colors went into music, I said, "My
God, this is incredible!" From that point I went into an
unconsciousness state, because I remember being jolted back against
the bed. There was a knocking at the door, and I came back into
the body. I was still aware of this tremendous force; my whole
body was shaking.
Rev. Michael Sun
I was using the spiritual exercises regularly when I first got
into the Movement, because I was doing very little else. I had
a couple of experiences which made things tangible for me. I was
lying in bed and feeling a pull, a drawing out, like suction.
I was familiar with the idea of having the consciousness leave
the body. I would feel myself rising up and would get anxious.
If I did, I would wake up and lose the experience. But on a couple
of occasions I lifted up; the consciousness was free of the body,
and I was looking around. I was as awake as I am now and thinking,
"Wow, my body is asleep, and my consciousness is not there."
I could see colored lights all around, striations of purple and
gold and yellow and orange-red. I was trying to see what was going
on, and the next thing I knew I awoke into another level. I was
with J-R and Phil, one of his staff, and we were walking down
some stairs. I saw a few people I recognized, and I realized I
was still not awake. I looked around for a while, and nothing
was particularly happening; so I decided to wake up all the way.
I tried to open my eyes, and I couldn't do it. It was like I wasn't
all there. I worked on it, and finally straining I woke to full
consciousness. I still had that vivid recollection, which verified
what I had been told about having the consciousness separate from
the body.
Gregory S. Smith
During one meditation, I got very far away in my consciousness
from my body, and even though I didn't know exactly what was going
on in this other greater reality, I had the perspective of looking
back into this physical world and thinking, "That's going
on too, but as a side project." The physical is important,
but whether I do one thing or another, or live in this place or
that, is irrelevant. All that is important is that I accept what
comes forward for me and not resist it.
Vivian Joseph
The high experience of my quest was when I was connected to the
Sound Current by the Mystical Traveler Consciousness after two
years of concentrated study - the Ocean of Divine Love and Mercy,
and the force of universes. The connection was made, and I felt
a warm tide rising from the lower chakras to the third eye area,
a physical pressure and a spiritual freedom. I was not evolved
enough to experience my divinity consciously; so I went to a couch
where in sleep I could release myself from bodily bondage. My
point of view from that time has been that if I misplaced my friends
and lost my possessions, I would have my tone, a key by which
I can know the Fatherhood of God and the Brotherhood of Mankind.
Is it not divine that we
the holders of the mind intact
not only reflect back
but also create
those things we make
for Gods sake.
Mark T. Holmes
I am an architecture student, and often go for a day or two without
sleeping to finish a project. Once I was about two days into a
project without sleep, and it was due in four hours. I was blocked
in a particular design aspect; I couldn't see anything. I was
dry-heaving inside of myself, was really tired, and couldn't handle
it. So I sat down in a chair and started doing spiritual exercises.
Within two or three minutes I felt myself completely fall down
in my chair and shoot out of my body like a rocketship. I kept
consciousness as long as I could, but it was moving so quickly.
I came to 20 minutes later. My body was no longer tired, and I
felt much energy within me. I looked down at my design problem
on the floor and saw what I needed to do. I worked for 15 minutes
to finish it and took it to school.
Randy Garver
The Sound is getting louder. I can hear it now after my most recent
initiation, whereas after the previous initiation, it was colors,
purple and green. J-R asked me to write him four to six weeks
after the initiation and tell him how I was doing. I wrote that
I was doing, "Pretty good, that I can hear the Sound, but
that I don't know if it is an illusion, or if it is real."
As soon as I wrote the letter the Sound stopped, and I was really
desolate. Then after thinking a while that I was a dummy, I thought
maybe he took it away to let me know it was real. The Sound came
back. Then I began to wonder and asked in another letter, "Did
you give me back my illusion as a pacifier to make me feel better
because I wanted it back so much, or is this real?" I decided
if I didn't have J-R to ask, then I would have to decide it was
real. I was able to talk to John-Roger about this a short time
later, and he said, "Yes, it's the Sound." On the mental
level one doubts oneself a lot!
The tones are so subtle that I can't tell when it is running water
or bells tinkling. I don't have to say my mantram always to get
it; I can be still and tune in, and it comes. Other times I can't
get it, and that is good, because otherwise I would take it for
granted. I wouldn't want to be without it, as being away from
it those few days was enough for me.
Muriel Moore
When I was 8 years old I began to have experiences of tuning into
what I know now to be the Cosmic Sounds, an aspect of the Sound
Current. The sound came in as a steady, high-pitched tone, heard
in the center of my head. Because I heard it when everything became
very quiet, I thought it must be what "silence" sounded
like. I have recently learned that I can reach consciously into
a peaceful, calm state by listening for that sound. The sound
is a presence; it is always there. I have only to shift my attention
from the chattering of my mind in order to hear it. And, if I
listen to it closely enough, I can hear it differentiate itself
into various tones, much as one can see the white light around
a candle differentiate into color tones after gazing at it long
enough.
Sometimes I hear a loud tone on one side of my head. This tone
sounds like the distant ricochet of a bullet - strong at first,
then gradually fading away. It's a real attention-grabber. J-R
told me once that I was being instructed from the other side at
those times. It might take a week or ten days for this information
to be stepped down in frequency so that it could be filtered into
the conscious level of awareness. Then the information might actually
come through the agency of another person, a book, or through
a learning experience. J-R said that if I could lift the frequency
of my "receiving station" high enough, I could get the
information directly and immediately. Until I can do that, I just
say, "Thank you" whenever I hear this tone.
Gary Collier
I have experienced traveling in the higher realms of Light. One
morning I was lying in bed thinking about soul travel and the
Light. I had a strong feeling that I would like very much to leave
my body and consciously travel. I had brought back memory of doing
this in the dream state, but never consciously. I asked for the
experience, "for the highest good." I had asked before,
but this time it happened.
The feelings were intense and the vibrations very high. It was
as though my body split, and I overflowed into this great ocean
of love. I felt a total oneness, so complete, desireless. Things
that seemed so important to me in the past meant nothing. I experienced
fulfillment. God, Light, and love was all that mattered.
This helped me break many desire patterns. I was made aware of
my responsibilities here and realized why it was so important
to always ask for the highest good.
I later experienced being out in the universe. There were brilliant
lights and rays of light. The feeling was one of total freedom.
There was no fear. I had asked for the experience for the highest
good. It was 8 a.m. There was construction going on near me. I
wondered if I would be able to do it, as I awaken very easily.
It happened quickly. I was just there. It seemed like seconds.
I was surprised when I opened my eyes, as two hours had passed.
I'm very grateful to have had these experiences. I now know for
myself that these things are possible. I also realize how important
it is to come into balance and do whatever is necessary here and
now.
After five years in the Movement of Spiritual Inner Awareness,
my experiences are not so dramatic, but much more constant are
the feelings of peace, oneness, inner strength and knowing. I
feel more love and security than I've ever known before. The fears
are falling away, and my life flows, when I work within the Light.
Wanda Mansbach
I found through doing, that the spiritual exercises are not passive
- not a feeling of calmness all the time. Often a great agitation
or irritation will come up. I say, "Today I want to affirm
that I am working with the Mystical Traveler." Usually it
tests my weakest points.
I relate back to the Bible where Jesus was in the garden
with the disciples. They fell asleep, and Jesus said, "Can't
you stay awake for one minute with me?" We sleep in areas
where we are the weakest. So every day new things come up that
maybe I have suppressed for years. Many times when a feeling of
agitation or depression comes in, I remember techniques that take
care of these things. It is not a divine right that we are here;
it is a privilege. When I don't use these techniques I want to
kick myself. The answers are here. I've often thought whether
I should get another Light Study with John-Roger. The answer always
is, "You know the answer, if you go inside." That is
where J-R is, and that is where the work is. More and more his
work is on the inner levels, and people must tune inwardly to
get the answers. As soon as one finds these answers inside, he
finds that he is in there too; so he finds himself.
I am finding that soul consciousness is different from anything
I have ever thought of, felt or imagined, for these concepts are
only partial realities. Instead of trying to be something or to
imagine what it is like, I can just be and hold a frequency. I
think this is why the initiation tones, the HU, and other frequencies
that have been given are so valuable. One doesn't have a picture
that is associated with them, because they are frequencies that
one holds to keep the mind steady so that a pure essence can flow
through. People in the initial stages have told me, "I do
the spiritual exercises, but I don't feel anything." I went
through that, expecting maybe to see cities on other realms. I
found as I chant my tones I am building a bridge to the higher
realms. It is so beautiful when I am living it, and so miserable
when I am not. At first the negativity is brought up and cleared,
so one can see straight; otherwise it will be cloudy. Letting
the Spirit and life flow through is not trying to do or not to
do, or reacting, but becoming an instrument for the Divine Melody.
Rev. Michael Sun